Saturday, February 5
No one is greater in this house than I am. My master has withheld nothing from me except you, because you are his wife. How then could I do such a wicked thing and sin against God?
yk;
in the book eevoon gav me, i came across the second part of the verse. googlin it up, i found tat there was a part a to the verse.
think it's God's call to our struggles - to really shut the door to sin by commandin ourselves nt to dishonor God.
esp when i read the first sentence. this may b a bit out of context, but it's true tat in our body, the house/temple of God, we are so called the greatest. we decide which way we wanna go & follow.
we are entrusted with much. we had been blessed richly by God. how then can we think of goin against God?
& todae sermon. abt love being nt takin advantage of others, but givin of ourselves.
as we grow in God's love, as we know God's love more & more, we ought to be so full of love, such tat we can't bear to sin against others.
as we surrender to God & His love, He will transform us & help us through. it's nt hopeless. the temptations may b there, but we can hold on, coz we are aimin for Christ's standard. His greatest love will sustain us thru.
on a side note, the other day i was havin a buffet. i was thinkin. at a buffet, we hav many choices, but we alway choose the best. we r nvr force to take wat others recommend, we hav to choose for ourselves wat's best.
it's nt exactly a correct matchin illustration, but there's tat bit of the idea in it. yeahh..
some thoughts for today!
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Saturday, January 22
it's been a very long while. doubt blogs r still in nowadays.
yk;
anyway, tis is smt nt tat suitable for fb & thus i shall post tis here.
yk, u so need to b patient.
in recent months & weeks, i'd been realizin how different i hav become & as a result of which, havin all sorts of plans for my future.
in terms of lifestyle, i no longer can really relate wit the youth. many times, they look pretty much to me for spiritual & ministry guidance. yes, though i look at some of the young ones ard & see them as ppl who are so full of potential to make great difference in the corrupted world, there is nt tat much i can do.
& so yeah, there's still this desire in me to do smt crazy. to make a radical move in my life. perhaps tis is coz of a heart tat really want to do wat it enjoys.
yet again, yk, u so need to b realistic & flow in God's plan.
but well, watever that plan is. there's still this current phase tat i need to faithfully close & hand over. time to disciple, & let new ppl run wit the vision i first started. to go & do things even greater than me.
yeah, it's gonna still b a long while. but my heart is juz so excited, tempted & impatient. tat y, i need God to tame me, make me patient & trust in Your ways.
this year is gonna b such a radical year. so many things r gonna happen. phewww...
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Sunday, November 7
i believe i hav smt to do, but either i m procrastinatin (denyin) it or i m desperately tryin to recall it.
yk;
o well, since i wanna blog abt my trip, here it is. i disappeared to MUAR on 4 nov & returned on 5 nov. coz my mum needa work on sat & i needa b on duty too. haha.
yeah, i drove all the way there. was quite fun & enjoyable cruisin at 110. i m a gd guy, i dun speed (:
sadly, on the way there, i had to apply smt i learnt in the army. nt to stop or to swerve to avoid animals which suddenly crossed the road. yeahh. sad, but no choice. if i stop, it may cause an accident. o well.
muar is a small town, wit like hardly any tourists. there's like onli a handful (literally) of decent hotels. & u can cover the main part of town easily by foot. it's juz a quiet town wit nth.
still it was a colorful experience explorin the streets. & coz the layout is nt entirely rectangular, my direction sense was nt exactly functionin. haha.
so my mum & i juz anyhow walk ard, wit a very rough direction sense to get us back to hotel. we bought all sorts of stuff. literally. shoes, groceries, stationery, food etc etc.
one main thing we did apart from walkin is eating. but there's nth much special there. wanton mee, char kway tiao, chicken rice, dim sum, otah, grilled fish....tat's abt it. haha. the most special thing, a pastry wit pork fillin (super yummy!) was from other parts of malaysia haha.
that did nt include our hotel breakfast. it looked quite pathetic. but the fried rice, soto bee hoon, porridge etc was pretty gd. ate until quite full.
& we got ourselves stuck in a place wit no cab & sorta no way to walk back to hotel. haha. it was at their giant. so my mum & i had to ask a lady who kindly drove us back lol.
it was a very interestin lesson in town plannin. seriously. build a giant tat u can onli drive there. haha.
on 2nd day, we drove back. visited very small & quiet towns tat barely classify as town. haha. had lunch at parit jawa (& that was like the onli time we saw so many s'porean cars)..
oyster egg (i eat egg, mum ate oyster), sambal prawns, otah & fried rice. we were already quite full from breakfast, so we packet half our lunch home for dinner hahaha.
yeahh...interestin lah. drivin & drivin. so carefree. so enjoyable. nt the perfect trip, but a gd one.
yupp...for now like tat, for the record...hehe
x6:57:00 PM
Thursday, August 19
when u stand at the crossroads of tough choices, simply imagine God askin u these 3 questions.
yk;
1. What price will you not pay for Me?
2. Didn't you always say you will follow me with all your life?
3. What about the price I paid for you?
how to reply man? juz like tears r said to b women's ultimate weapon, i can say these r pretty much God's ultimate weapon hur.
in the end, it's realli all abt faith. it's all abt God, nt urself.
God's ways are always higher. you seriously hav absolutely no idea how tis way may b better.
perhaps again, it is nt abt the here & now. how much you can do for the Kingdom if what you planned go on smoothly.
perhaps when ur character is molded, you may b able to do so much more in the future. tat it simply outweighs the present 'gain'.
& also, when you walk, you can always b assured His presence will guide every step of the way. nothin beats tat feelin, tat assurance of knowin He has smt installed.
so, u can juz onli walk forward in faith. go thru everythin wit Him. it may nt easy, it may nt b wat u wanted, but well.
it's really very tough. i juz feel like castin everythin aside as a sign of protest, demostration, make a stand watever nt. haha. but well. God's ultimate weapon. how to counter?
x6:38:00 PM
Friday, August 6
1. bali trip
yk;
2. camera
3. chalet
all $$$$ bleahhh
x3:24:00 PM
Friday, July 9
God is very, very interesting. or rather in the way He calls me.
yk;
many times, He does it in moments when i feel the least up to e job. moments when i consider myself the least qualified.
& in tis case, when i realli consider it somewat beyond me.
it is a huge commitment tat i don't realli feel ready. esp wit e amt of things alreadi on my plate. yet, each time i m called, i always know tat it's coz i m trusted to do smt abt it.
& i m reminded once again. tat we r always the best person available for God's callin.
o well. wat a week it has been.
esp tonite. i m super angry tat singtel replaced my house's modem wit a LOWER speed than our plan. & it's freakin way slower.
if i still dun get e supervisor on e phone soon, they are all goin to receive a complain letter from me. bleahhh.
think s'pore small, they dominate market, they can do watever they wan.
o well.....watever e case. honestly, i m nt quite ready for tmrw. esp wit e nonsense from singtel tonite.
goin library expo book sale in mornin before headin to nexus. hopin can get some gd bargains.
x9:08:00 PM
Tuesday, June 29
todae's an interestin day. went yishun safra adventure activity.
yk;
abseiling was a traumatic experience. i was quite badly shaken aft tat. though it inspired me abt our christian life.
rock climbin as it was when i first tried it in sec 3, was fun, & extremely tirin. climbed till my arms & legs were shaking. at least i did my best le. hehe..
aft e abseilin experience, i consider e canopy challenge walk to be beyond me. i'll realli freak out. i'm there for fun, nt to torture myself.
but that's nt all. i hope my ns life wun take too big a change aft todae hehe. aft i was approached by someone, "you looked familiar, like someone i knew before..." & yes, turns out to b my pri sch classmate. lol.
i dun rmb a single thing, though admittedly he had looked strangely familiar. then as i was cyclin to cut hair & thinkin abt it, an impression began to form in my mind. perhaps knowin too many ppl of e same name dilutes my memory. hehe..
o well. abt abseilin. aft tryin it, i m quite in a dilenma wat to describe it. it was scary, & it took much coaxin from others & myself, a lot of small steps, & quite a lot of fearin and wincin before i leaned far out enough to begin e descend.
it was quite a somewat fun experience, how a single rope twisted & tied around a carbine can actually slowly and steadily lower u down. i even attempted to look around & admire e 'scenery' from tis once (yes, probably one & only) in my lifetime experience. lol.
yet, if u were to ask me to do again, i realli dunno if i'll dare do it again. until we moved onto rock climbin did i got over e 'trauma'. haha..
o well. as i was sayin. it realli reminded me tis is how our Christian life shld b like. to push ourselves over e edge & trust in the stability and security of 1 rope. it is pretty scary (at least for me) to inch forward to e edge, to stick myself out onto thin air & get off.
yet, when we do so, we found tat it was not as scary as it seems. & yeah, tat's true. when we challenge ourselves to beyond us, it may look tough, but aft we made e decision, it dun look tat difficult.
& our life, is one aft another of such experiences. we may nt wish to relive it, but we will con't to obey. yes, we may even get kinda comfortable wit it, which well, is pretty gd. to enjoy takin up God's challenge all e time, no matter e difficulty, i guess.
hmmm yeahh..
& another thought. we shld make Kingdom livin our passion & joy, for tat'll b wat consumes our lives. & we'll need wat consumes our lives.. yeahh..
x8:46:00 PM
Wednesday, June 9
i m bloggin now coz of 2 reasons...
yk;
1, coz now i m finally at seletar, & thus i reached home early enough to clear some emails & stuff
2, & those stuff aren't a lot coz it's e low season, hence i m quite free & nth to do
finally, aft months being posted to the west, i m now at a camp 15min bus journey away...wahaha.. though e walk inside camp to coy line is also 15min, at a fast pace -.-
& the camp is hugeeeee. so thankfully can bring bike in so yeahh. easier to travel ard, & in out.
& the place is so pretty hehehe... i love british colonial buildings. e place is kinda like a resort & u're transported back to 1930s, 1940s
& i'm right beside e sea, so yeahh, nice scenery to read bible too hehehe..
but aiya, a lot of things to b sian abt.. juz hope along e way things wun b as bad as it seems..
& there isn't much units there i can revocate too lol. so juz b thankful it's stay out :D
will b stuck there forever...hehee
anyway, i m simply nt used to havin nth much to b busy abt nowadays haha. feel so uncomfortable haha (:
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